Temptation

Lately, I have been tempted to pick up old habits.
I haven't, but I want to.

Clarity

When God allows you to see things, it is amazing.

As I have previously mentioned, I have suffered from eating disorder. While I am still doing great with that, there are times I want to give up.

We all know the effect the media has on eating disorders. Most people also know how the media digitally enhances girls' pictures to make them look skinnier than they are. Well last night I tried this technique out in Photoshop CS. I took a picture of a plus size model from the internet, a very beautiful girl, and it took all of 10 minutes to make inches smaller.




This made me sick.

However, I now see that God gives us all beautiful bodies. Whether our hipbones are too big or too small, God finds them just right. The supermodels and movie stars on magazine covers is not what God made me. I'm starting to find that alright with me.

God bless you all.

Talents

I deeply believe that God gives us all talents. However, when are we to know what is a God-given talent or just a hobby? I love to sing. I also love photography. I am not saying that I am the best, but I believe I am pretty darn good.

I want to use these talents for the Lord's glory. I am just not sure how yet.

God bless you all.

New Roofs

A roof is a covering, a protection. Mine has changed. The absence of blogging is probably due to that. Shortly after my last post my life changed.

My cousin, who is not really living a Christian life, and I, who started trying, had a falling out. It wasn't just a falling out but an epic battle. I don't know how to talk about the situation without sounding like I am complaining so I will not.

Therefore, about a week and a half ago I moved back in with my dad and step-mom. I'm not sure why I ever left. I guess I was just being foolish and trying to assert my independence. Now that I am back, things have been great.

I am doing well on my new life-style. Although I have been growing with God, I still have trouble remembering to read my Bible first thing in the morning, and I know if I don't do it then it won't get done. I am also very passionate about my art again. I will be creating a photography blog soon.

God has blessed me with such an amazing family here at my dad's. Although I miss my now non-existent relationship with my grandma and my cousins who live with her, I know that choices have to be made. We choose our own environments. I am now choosing for my environment to be beneficial instead of destructive.

I hope you all will choose the same.

God bless you all.